craps

2007-09-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANJIA!

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIXIN!

i wanted to dedicate a post to tanjia, but then again, i realise she will never ever come here to read it, until maybe after Os, so forget it. haha. anyway section celebration was a great success i guess, she really really got a great surprise at thomson plaza. (:
& the three of us visited her house yesterday, a surprise it was supposed to be, but somehow she just claims that she knows we're going. haha so we made a cake for her, wish, blow, cut, eat, etc. then down to junction 8 to walk around, not that pleasant over there, but i guess we still enjoyed ourselves quite a bit?

I WANT TO PLAY CLUEDO. :/

oh yes, i think ms chooteckchan is a really caring teacher, its a saturday & she's still helping her students in school. no life perhaps, but i think she's damn nice. consider all the good food she offered us during the course of our revision too. haha.

anyway i have officially given up on social studies. the moment i open the book, i grab a few "more eye-catching" words then i close the book again to do other subjects.
its nearing the end of holidays, yet i have not touched many many topics.
DIE ALREADY LARH. :( :(

unproductive cannot be the way;

2007-09-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

PANG'S TUITION :D
obvious pang is the only guy in the picture, haha, & we were supposed to be introducing the SNELL'S LAW (snail's lor)

shall take some time off my studying time to say that pang's tuition yesterday was superb! haha. gave him a real pleasant surprise when we had to go through so much trouble to present him the teachers' day cake. come to think of it, he is the only teacher whom we managed to celebrate teachers' day with this year, thanks to the unbelievable massive blackout in st nicks. haha. :/
for more details, visit goldpaperclips.livejournal.com
(oh & pang threw his own face away)

today's english tuition was rather FRUITful too. instead of us giving mrs cheah a proper teachers' day present, she gave us teachers' day cakes instead. it was some peach jelly cake? or whatever, but it was really delectable. haha. oh & we got to know abit more about Mr WYF. hahahah.

you know, studying with HSM 2 & ECLIPSE around doesnt really help. & im progressing really slowly with eclipse. only 1 chapter allowed every day, i'll take forever! haha. :)

& rejoice! cause tanjia finally has her very own friendster account. go add her soon alright. HAHA. :)

liar liar pants on fire;

2007-08-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

NO SCHOOL TMR DUE TO MASSIVE POWER FAILURE.
okay by now this would be old news already, thanks to the efficient telephone network. (thanks chewps!)
but still, i find it shockingly amusing. like wth, in the midst of prelims & suddenly there's no school? to think i was trying so hard to prepare for tmr's EL paper. and all the teachers' day celebrations are called off too. so the presents we painstakingly prepared will all go down the drain. OH WELLS.

oops, im supposed to be on HIATUS, but i just forgot all about that after knowing that there's no school tmrw. haha. but since im here, i shall just talk about first day of prelims!
chinese compo was alright, but stupid english passage was rather tough.
& AFTER PLAYING SPARTANS FOR 8751932 TIMES, I FINALLY KNOW THAT SPARTAN MEANS SIMPLE. WTH I THOUGHT IT MEANT SOMETHING LIKE A MARCH LA. :/

hopefully the remaining papers will turn out good. :)

grant me wisdom & a peaceful mind;

2007-08-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS TMR.
what a horror. i have been partnering Mr. Thesarus for the past two days or so, and i only managed to stuff 100 new words into my puny brain. wonderful, i really need to buck up on my awfully lousy english. :(

hopefully my minute brain can last me till the end, and by then, i would have changed many more partners. 3 more weeks to end of prelims! :/

i think i sound incoherent, as a result of studying too much? i doubt so. ahh im just turning abnormal. :(

for now, HIATUS.
awjingwen is prelim-ing.

squeeze all your brain juices;

2007-08-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

taken by cherm's oh-so-terrific camera!

YAY. hairspray on friday was superb!

before that, CC (without simin & jiaying) went down to njc open day. we didnt get to explore much. just managed to see some long-lost IP friends! :)

after about half an hour or so at nj, rushed down to j8 to meet the other two of them for HAIRSPRAY! i love amanda bynes la, she's super cute. & there were many many nice songs.

it was super random, but jiaying & i decided to stay over at simin's house, so we went to plaza sing to get some materials & went to simin's house to make teachers' day cards! fooled around till about 2 plus then we all went to bed, leaving the stuff undone till the next day. haha. I LOVE STAYOVERS. & simin's sister sent me home, eh sisters who can drive are so cool la. :D

after tuition today, rushed down to Hilton Hotel for the Australian seminar, okay cool, now i cant decide which one to go. but lucky simin's going with me to awesome australia! :D

alright, back to serious business. FOUR more days to prelims. :(

its a group effort;

2007-08-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

introducing - chewpin the nerd

PE innovative games turned out to be a success thankfully, the weather was good & everything thing was kind of to our advantage. & miss lim is really very nice. yayy we earned ourselves some credit. :)

prelims in 8 more days, i'd better get my butt of and start studying! adios. :)

i still cant figure out what triggered that change in you. or perhaps you can just enlighten me. you seem like a totally different person now, one whom i can no longer relate to, one whom i can no longer understand. i really wish, although its quite impossible, that you would return back to your usual self soon. probability? 1 out of a million.

setting your priorities right;

2007-08-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i last blogged, but the week was eventful but kind of meaningless in a way.

firstly, there was EL ORAL on monday. being second on the first day when oral just commenced didnt really help, i was in serious lack of luck. & omg the male examiner was so so so annoying! i wish they would just sack him or something. :(

geog on tuesday was our first mock paper, but i only managed to go through 7 chapters out of 15? that wasnt even half. but getting over that paper was really a huge load off and we just totally started slacking after that. thats definitely not that way to behave when we're so close to prelims, but somehow, we just did. my eyes were more of less plastered to twilight & new moon everyday, hoping to finish those and start on eclipse soon!

on two consecutive recess we celebrated enid's birthday with two different cakes. couldnt sing her the birthday song in the canteen so we had to do it in the forum. we were supposed to celebrate for her yesterday night but enid had something on & simin was absent so the rest of us resorted to wasting our time at amk hub. :/

ahh yes, yesterday was our last day in that GREEN classroom beside 3L, cause we're moving to the art room w.e.f monday & spending the remaining days there. despite the fact that 4C is being infested with lots of ants, and it gets a little noisy at times (i think our class is noisier though), i really really like that classroom la. because its GREEN yes. haha. i dont want to move into the spooky art room which is so much higher now. & we're like totally cut off from civilisation there.
I WILL MISS THE GREEN ROOM. RARHH. :(

on a lighter note, i attended the overseas talk with jiaying & simin this morning! & simin's parents. haha. it was a good talk for me, and i have more or less made up my mind. :)

vivo with simin was fruitful as well, we finally managed to get things done. well apparently, its my last chance to go out because prelims is starting real soon, in TWELVE DAYS TIME. :( :(

and i missed the fireworks once again.

stop acting like you dont care, because you know, & i know, that its bothering you way too much.
its a mental torture for all of us. so please, do something that you deem good for all of us.

you spent my trust away;

2007-08-11T04:01:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHH. FINALLY.
after making my computer crash 17 times (i swear i almost wanted to give up & just go to bed), after making me waste 4 hours in front of the computer (well at least i did a wee bit of geog yeah), i finally finished the CC video! haha. not that perfect though. my eyelids are almost closing already la. :/

so there you go. :)

goodnight everyone! or rather, good morning? :)

tell me its worth it;

LONELY DAY

2007-08-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

2007-08-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a fruitful day! even though i waited 2 hours for liyin & the rest. luckily yanzhu just finished tuition so i could walk around with her. breakfast with jiaying, yanzhu & weiling! yanzhu got quite pissed off by the waitress, but thank god she recovered after that. haha.

DISTURBIA WAS A FANTASTIC SHOW! quote from cherms, "so creepy yet so romantic" hahah. then lunch at the foodfare. of course, took lots of photos everywhere & anywhere. :D

celebrated the nation's birthday in the evening! i know i missed out alot by not being there watching LIVE. but oh wells, wasnt feeling too good so i spent the night at home watching the parade on tv. i thought my mum was crazy to buy a cake for the nation's birthday, turned out it was for my cousin! haha. creamy banana chocolate cake was tasty, but SINFUL. :(

tsk, my second visit to the doctor in a week, and now i have accumulated 7 different types of medicine. :/

& my oral is on MONDAY! ah freak, i really need to recover soon.

anyway, i was studying at the void deck, covered quite a bit today, until the stupid group of cats starting roaming around precariously around the study corner so i was quite freaked out by their weird noises and then i kept all my stuff and ran home. haha.

alright, starting on my masterpiece again. :)

it just cant be forced to happen;

2007-08-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

THIRD POST OF THE DAY!

PHOTO-TIME! :D

four of us

four of us with kahyee

sec ones on the track

everyone's in RED

look at jiaying's head!

CC :D

us with tessa & calista

FOURCHARITY :D

us with mrs sherwood

MISS CHAN & MRS GOH!

four of us with yanzhu

me & yixin

me & liyin within a star!

CC acting cool eh

yanzhu, vanessa & i

my beautiful masterpiece :)

we saw huiwei at cathay!

& ann and deb at heerens

we took like almost 200 hundred pictures today. and everything's just RED. haha.
YAY PHOTOS ROCK! :D

red hot all over;

2007-08-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

wendy kind of introduced me to this, and it was kind of funny, so i shall just put it here.
I AM A PATRIOTIC PATRIOT. :)

there's no place i'd rather be;

2007-08-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

argh, what bad timing.
i have hardly recovered from the sorethroat, but i am down with flu again. must be that yanzhu la, spread all her germs to me. :/

anyway, celebrations today was AWESOME! we had lots of fun singing all the songs, and of course dancing the FUN DANCE of 2002. :)
oh miss chan, mrs goh & mrs cheong bought the whole cohort cornetto ice-cream! so we stayed back to gobble them up, and then CC cam-whored in class for one whole hour! hahaha.

together with yanzhu, we trained down to town at 11plus, we wanted to watch disturbia at cathay but FULL HOUSE so we went to eat and shop instead.
isa bought a newurbanmale bag, & simin bought a top from topshop.
me, EMPTY-HANDED. :(

pictures up very very soon!! :D
yay disturbia with most of the CC tmr!
i will start mugging SOON, i promise.

remember what you've said;

2007-08-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

okay i was just checking my mail and one of the mails was from chermms and it wrote:
"Open this file if you love Chermaine :D"
and when i opened that mail, here's what i saw!

and many many more.
alright, dont we just love her? :)

today was a really enjoyable day, minus the physics test in the morning.
PE was fun, miss loke bought us food, mdm goh let us listen to jay chou's song, we had sing along sessions during lessons, and we were dismissed 15 minutes earlier (hehheh)!
then after school, CC went to junction 8 and we ate at pastamania again! :)
oh yes, and i specially bought a pair of shorts for school tmr. :/

CC (without liyin & isabel then)

now, i am quite excited for tmr! afterall, its gonna be our last celebration tgt with the school. :O
and of course, lots of fun activities after 10.30!

together we make a difference;

2007-08-04T02:46:00.000+08:00

2007-08-04T02:32:00.001+08:00

thank god i have one less thing to worry about now. :)
yet another late night, luckily there's isnt any lessons tmr, so i can finally WAKE UP LATE!
i was feeling kind of random, so i just made two videos and im shall upload them soon! meantime, there's the "we live in singapura" video. sherwood showed us today, but somehow we only managed to watch the cartoon but there wasnt any sound. i think the song is kind of catchy actually. :)

you are my top priority;

2007-08-03T21:02:00.001+08:00

my life is seriously screwed up.
if this goes on, i'll just end up with >20 for my Os.

more mystery = less misery;

2007-07-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

i mustnt let you make my life miserable anymore.
you've done it once,
AND YOU WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN.

sorry guys, i think we arent supposed to remind each other. but its
31 days to PRELIMS. &
84 days to THE BIG OS.

suffering under your clutches;

2007-07-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

here's something to celebrate our

"oh-so-unique" friendship? haha. <3

2007-07-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

oh yes, and i am back again, after one whole week of busy business.

one word to describe this week - COLD!
tsk the weather is so not helping, instead its making everyone's fall sick so easily and i had to endure two days without my dear partner huimin! and i think there's something very wrong with my stomach. i just keep puking for no reason, and i had to sleep on the sofa last night. :(

yes english prelims oral was over on tues. i am quite sure i screwed it in front of ms jeya, and she actually told me something very funny at the end. oh wells. :) i just have to buck up for O LEVELS!

i think i has got the worst luck ever. fancy me being chosen to submit my file for EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT. okay maybe except english. this sucks, because i lead an absolutely messed-up life. just take a look under my desk if you dont believe me. :/

okay i am so going to need to spend the rest of the weekends mugging till i drop dead cause there's differentiation & integration, two chem tests, two chapters of SS & two geog tests! everything's coming in pairs. :(

it seems like life took a hundred and eighty degrees turn for me within such a short period of time. i think i am turning into a freak. :(

life works in the opposite direction now;

2007-07-22T02:49:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you,
but I want to.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move.
I can't look away.

I shouldn't love you,
but I want to.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you,
but I can't move.
I can't look away.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

It's getting hard to,
be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way.

And I don't know,
how to be fine when I'm not.
Cause I don't know,
how to make the feeling stop.
Just so you know.

This feeling's taking control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want to.
Just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

This emptiness is killing me,
I'm wondering why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize,
it was always there,
just never spoken.
I'm waiting here,
been waiting here.

Just so you know,
this feeling's take control of me,
and I can't help it.
I won't sit around,
I can't let him win now.
Thought you should know,
I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want too.
Just gotta say it all before I go.
Just so you know.

Whoa,
Just so you know,
Whoa,
Thought you should know.

I tried my best to let go of you,
but I don't want to.
Just gotta say it all before I go,
just so you know.

Just so you know.

NEW SKIN

2007-07-21T23:58:00.001+08:00

NEW SKIN!

i realised that it is TOUGH to stop blogging, even though i only use the computer once a week now. i guess i really suck at resisting temptations yeah.

we all survived three tests yesterday, and it turned out that the OPEN BOOK was the most difficult. oh wells.
the week has been pretty much okay, we went down to support track on wed & we really cheered our lungs out, since its our last time supporting a school event, and until now my voice sounds weird. :/ i hope it recovers soon cause im having prelims oral next week already! drats. prelims in 5 weeks' time! :(

i spent most of my time reading letters today, and i really miss doing many things. :(

everyone's moving along except for me;

2007-07-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

I'LL JUST DROP BY TO SAY
FRIDAY THE 13TH WAS A REALLY HORRID DAY. :(

things are meant to be like that, so i'll just have to accept it;
i know you dont give a damn about me anymore.

2007-07-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

i guess i dont have time to blog anymore. :(

i am next to the Pacific, to be specific;

2007-07-07T00:18:00.001+08:00

eh im helping enid's FRIEND promote this!

HWA CHONG HIGH SCHOOL BAND CONCERT
collaboration with a college from perth
12th july, 7pm at hwa chong junior college auditorium
no ticket charges, so you just need to turn up there
songs they're playing : Merry Widow, American Graffiti X, Glasgow Fair, Post for Singapore, etc.
please tell me or enid the number of people going, latest by sunday. please try to go! ENID NEEDS NUMBERS. haha.

FYI I AM STILL WAITING FOR THAT IDIOT'S EMAIL. :(

as easy as abc;

I AM SORRY

2007-07-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

thank god i survived, despite the strangling schedule we had this week. and after this there's still a pretty long way to go. I AM DRAINED, SERIOUSLY. its like the wave approaching the coast and hitting the gentle slope before it so i lost all my energy before i actually reached the end. WOW. studying is taking up my entire life.
but night study sessions with each & everyone was good, to a certain extent. i was half studying and half laughing my time away. :/

on a lighter note, i am so glad SPA was over today, at least we settled the physics practical segment for O levels. :)
went down to visit the band after the paper, apparently i was so late i only managed to watch the blue badges get dismissed from drills. missed out on the drills part & i'll never get to see it again, cause i'll be bombarded with extended lessons till evenings on fridays. :(
pumping session was uhh INTENSIVE? the bandmembers pumped so much till their knees looked so red & sore, so i got yanzhu to go with me to buy ice for them. it was supposed to be for their knees, but somehow everyone just ate the ice up to hydrate themselves. :/
THE MOST TERRIBLE THING, was that one of the sec one dropped the entire sax down the steps in the band room. we were all damn shocked, and now the instrument's spoilt. right after i just fixed one, then another one is spoilt again. tsk tsk.

sometimes i really think that some things are really meaningless. you planned for it to turn out good, but the plan just backfires and you get the direct opposite of what you wanted to get. perhaps this is just part & parcel of life.

oh its past midnight, so its 07/07/07. what a significant date. anyway ITS LIVE EARTH DAY. EVERYBODY MUST TRY AND WEAR GREEN!! and i shall listen to "seventh night of july" when the night comes. :)

sadly, you cant deny the fact that you have changed;

2007-07-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

basically the whole day was spent to & fro the GREEN line. haha so coincidentally it was my favourite colour. :)
i bet i spent quite alot on the trains today. first it was from bugis to tanah merah before changing to changi airport, then back to tanah merah and lavender. within fifteen minutes i decided to go to bugis instead. then i went to kembangan and eunos was my last stop! FINALLY. haha.

i was supposed to take the grad cert photo at ICA, but the queue was DAMN LONG and i had to wait for almost 3 hours so i trained down to bugis instead, but the "photographer" at bugis was super flustered and unfriendly and my photo turned out so ugly. :(

dinner with my mum & her friends at this indonesian restaurant called PAGI SORE? to celebrate my mum's birthday. oh the food was really good, and i especially enjoyed the AVOCADO DESERT!

omg this week is madness, 8 tests in 4 days, so i guess i'll have to stay away from the computer for a few days! i feel so ill prepared for school tmr. :(

im definitely not prepared for all those, as much as i want to. i think i'd still prefer the conventional LOCAL education. i have friends here, and i want to be here with them. SORRY BUT IM NOT UP TO IT.

a penny for your thought;

2007-07-01T03:19:00.000+08:00

kudos. i just spent yet another few hours trying to fit everyone's face into 90x90 and finish the above. BORED OR WHAT, now my hand aches alot. haha. i think i have totally given up on my books, for the time being la.

anyway, liwen just reminded me that i havent actually finish opening their pop present of over a hundred small strips of paper? haha. and yes, i think i really miss them loads. even though i still get to see them around in school, the feeling is just totally different. :)

holding on to nothingness;

The Click Five - Time Machine

2007-06-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Oh what mess you've
Got the best of my heart
It broke and now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what shame you know
I didnt mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never ever move

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you
Ya i'm talking to you
You lost the love in bed
And now it's just dead
Cause it didn't mean a thing
Waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game
And ain't it a shame that it's just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm cryin' out
But I can't give in

I think you need some time by yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
You just need to unwind
In your time machine

All the things that we could change
Now we'll never be the same

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

By myself
I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
In my time machine

2007-06-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

I AM SO SCREWED TOO!
i was supposed to study history & chemistry today, but apparently i never touched my books at all. and its minutes to midnight. i doubt i will actually meet my target today? argh, saturday = unproductive study day.

morning was spent at school watching the band playing for open house! you can ask me for the recordings! :)
err i wanted to go visit the other ccas, but somehow that slipped my mind while i was there. haha. but anyway, cabbed down for piano and abit i missed one hour of lessons! oh yanzhu & i shared the super big cab cause that was the only one we could find when we rushed outside school. :)

piano ended, then went out with my grandmother. :/

I AM QUITE UPSET BECAUSE I ACTUALLY SKIPPED THE NDP PREVIEW AND CHEWPS SAY ITS NICE. :(

"tongue twister" of the day : how many 猪 can zhuzhu 煮 if zhuzhu can 煮猪 ? haha.

how i wished things could be the same like they used to be;

Westlife - I wanna grow old with you

2007-06-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing in everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

E-M-O

2007-06-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF SOLVING SUMS AFTER SUMS OF MATHS YET I STILL DONT GET THE CONCEPT RIGHT, SPENDING LOTS OF TIME MEMORISING TEXTS AFTER TEXTS YET FORGETTING THEM SO EASILY THE DAY AFTER, WRITING ESSAYS AFTER ESSAYS TILL MY HAND ACHE YET NOTHING GETS INTO MY HEAD. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? :(

I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY TIME AIMLESSLY, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE I AM DOING IT ALL THE TIME.
I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY TEARS CRYING OVER SOMETHING THAT IS ALREADY OVER, BUT I DID.
I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY BREATH EXPLAINING MYSELF, BUT I HAD TO.

WHY IS IT I ALWAYS CANNOT GET WHAT I REALLY WANT. WHY IS IT YOU'RE ALWAYS NOT THERE WHEN I NEEDED YOU.

THIS SILLY GAME OF LIFE IS DRAGGING FOR TOO LONG. WHEN WILL THE GAME BE OVER?

please tell me everything will be over soon;

2007-06-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

GOOD LUCK TO ALL THOSE HAVING VJ/RJ AUDITIONS TMR! GO ALL OUT & SHOW THEM WHAT ST NICKS BANDITS ARE MADE UP OF! :D

unleash your potential;

BOWLING FOR SOUP - HIGH SCHOOL NEVER ENDS

2007-06-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

Four years you think for sure
That’s all you've got to endure
All the total dicks
All the stuck up chicks
So superficial, so immature
Then when you graduate
You take a look around and you say HEY WAIT!
This is the same as where I just came from
I thought it was over
Aw that’s just great

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends

Check out the popular kids
You’ll never guess what Jessica did
And how did Mary Kate lose all that weight
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom’s straight
And the only thing that matters
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn’t matter if you’re sixteen or thirty-five

Reese Witherspoon, she’s the prom queen
Bill Gates, captain of the chess team
Jack Black, a clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback
Seen it all before
I want my money back!!

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who’s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who’s in the club and who’s on the drugs
Who’s throwing up before they digest
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then
High school never ends

High school never ends

The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And I still don’t have the right look
And I still have the same three friends
And I’m pretty much the same as I was back then
High school never ends

High school never ends
High school never ends
High school never ends
Here we go again

2007-06-16T19:18:00.000+08:00

okay here's a list of what i MUST complete by the end of this june holidays:
1. finish the 9 jianbaos which i owe zhangchunyu
~~2. finish 2 chinese review papers~~
3. read up more english books and improve my vocabulary, especially for the upcoming oral :/
4. revise 5 chapters of history & social studies each
~~5. revise 3 chapters of geog (this is seriously killer)~~
6. revise 5 chapters for ~~emaths~~, amaths, chem & ~~physics~~
~~7. finish all my overdue maths/amaths hmwk (i mustnt disappoint mrs fung anymore!)~~
~~8. plan a proper study timetable and FOLLOW IT (i realise i never ever follow what i plan)~~
~~9. practise my tenor (who has two girlfriends now)~~
10. collate all the necessary documents for DSA
~~11. master my g8 exam piece which i just started :/~~
~~12. pack my post-world-war study room so i can have a conducive environment for studying hahaha~~
~~13. finish my VERY belated pop presents for the sec fours~~
14. shopping, shopping and more shopping! (come on, its GSS and i havent been to any sale! how pathetic :/)
15. lose more weight so i can round it down HAHAHA
16. ~~visit the UK funfair~~ & have fun in malaysia :)

UPDATE! haha okay i have actually covered a little more, but thats not enough! i shall continue when im back. IN FIVE DAYS' TIME! :)

i think i'd lost you somewhere;

2007-06-14T22:44:00.000+08:00

ZOOOOOOOOOO with the blue badges!
took a bus to the zoo after breakfast with zhuer & ruijun. okay so jayme kind of persuaded me to go inside the zoo, and i did. THANKS ALOT FOR THE TREAT! i feel like a kid! haha and its like my third visit to the zoo this year (within six months). regina was leading the squad, while i walked at the back. like two tour guides leading a group of tourists to the zoo you know? haha. although i missed all the animal shows, i did enjoy myself during that short few hours. the weather was fine, the animals were adorable (the kids there were cuter), the food was great, and everything else turned out good, for me. :)

left early so that i could meet enid, jiaying & simin at amk hub. i thought i was pretty late and so i took a cab down. IN THE END, I WAS SECOND TO REACH, and i waited for almost half an hour for tanjiaying. rarh kind of wasted my cab fare, but nevermind. :) so the four of us went to fish & co. for lunch. and fyi i just had lunch in the zoo. but i eventually ordered cause we were prepared to spend a long time there! but its a huge mistake cause we all left half the serving there. haha. so we sat at fish & co. for more than 2 hours "bonding with one another" and also, i observed that seventeen 74 went past on the opposite side on the road. HAHA RANDOM. then at 5 plus jiaying & i left for school while the rest went home. spent quite some time in the band room, cause we had to choose scores for the audition. tried playing the tenor, and omg i think i lost all my tone.. :(

haha lugged my tenor home once again. i think justin should be my baby instead of my boyfriend, because I HAD TO CARRY HIM HOME. :/

okay, i think im using the computer too frequently now. BYE.

don't forget to remember me;

2007-06-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

eeks. a temperamental over has got to be 10 times worse than a conked out oven. :/ i was so happily baking cause i thought my oven was fixed, until it started smoking and half my brownie was burnt and the other half, uncooked. :(

and wth, i burnt my fingers thrice. i swear it has got to be my worst baking experience ever. then i let my mum try the brownie and she said almost immediately, "NOT VERY NICE", and i started crying. its like, i spent more than 2 hours on it & everything just went down the drain.. :(

then i walked to junction eight to meet jiaying, supposedly going to the uk funfair with chermms & jasape as well. ABIT, THEY PANGSEH US AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE. then the both of us got really pathetic and we started ringing people up to ask them to join us. BUT NONE WAS FREE. :( so the both of us just went ahead and took some rides. haha they just got us really really giddy.. :/
it was kind of boring with just the both of us, and jiaying didnt really dare to try the thrilling ones, so we left quite soon.

i was whining to jiaying about the brownie while walking back to junction eight, and she suggested that i should get something else, so we went to fairprice to look for food. omg, i was kind of miffed cause there wasnt anymore ferrero rocher nor kinder bueno. guess what, when i was about to pay, i saw the couple in front of me buying more than 20 packs of the ferrero rocher, and they took the container as well. :/ it was such a comical sight and the two of us just started laughing hysterically la. hahaha.

I DIDNT TOUCH THE BOOKS AT ALL TODAY. AND NOT TOMORROW.
yay tmr is a super packed day, im going to meet up with four different groups of people at four different times. hahaha. :)

bittersweet failure;

2007-06-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

OVERDUE PICTURES! haha cause i finally uploaded the pictures from my camera to the computer. :)

class bbq on 4th june

CC on the way to pasir ris park!

ORANGE-COLOURED CHILDHOOD FRIENDS :)

hwa chong concert on 5th june

hwa chong band playing..

cheryl & carina OOOH HAHA

band photo? hahaha.

STAR OF THE NIGHT, SHUELI :)

mrs's fung's farewell on 8th june (last day of extra lessons!)

mrs fung's last lesson with us.. :(

FORESEE THE AUTHENTICITY :)

four of us with mrs fung..

my favourite sitting partner HUIMIN! :)

uhh peek-a-boo sushuen & sally? haha.

im in charge of my own life;

2007-06-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

YAY I AM FINALLY USING THE COMPUTER AGAIN! dont i just sound like a deprived kid? im back after what seemed eons for me, cause i've so obediently spent the last 48 hours squeezing my brain juices until it filled two mugs full. haha okay that was lame.
uhuh. lets see what i have done!
-done 11 chapters of maths & 80% of the tys :DD
-revised development, weathering & rivers :D
-revised kinematics, forces, moments (for tuition actually)

argh, i want to meet up with alot of people. but but, sadly, i dont really have that much time to spare. revision alone is taking up 60% of my life, and the remaining 40% is spent EATING & SLEEPING. haha what a pig.

anyway, i visited the UK funfair yesterday! apparently the rides are REALLY EXPENSIVE. almost ten bucks for the more thrilling ones, i will just burn a big hole in my pocket la! my dad brought us there, and i just wasted money because i took a ride upon the merry-go-round (it just made me giddy) and the ferris wheel (which was uhh not quite worth it cause bishan's views arent exactly that fantastic) instead of the fun ones.. :/ i want to go back there again! this time i shall go and have REAL fun with my friends.. :)

adios, the deprived pig is going back to mugging again. :)

at the end of the day, both of us went our separate ways;

2007-06-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no
one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody -
though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you...
profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to
come around.
There's something naturally harmonious
about you.

What Color Green Are You?

2007-06-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

You Are a Little Addicted to Gossip

In your view, most gossip is pretty harmless.
And it's a pretty fun way to pass the time!
You're willing to pass on some juicy details...
As long as you're not impacting anyone's
personal life too deeply.

Are You Addicted to Gossip?

2007-06-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.

Overall, your true self is passionate and
physical.

With friends, you seem logical, detached,
and a bit manipulative.

In love, you seem intelligent and a bit
intimidating.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and
helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Elliott Yamin - Wait For You

2007-06-10T02:07:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed, but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same, I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

2007-06-10T01:17:00.001+08:00

i just wasted my precious time cause i didnt want to come home so early. we went all the way to jurong for a pathetic dinner, then sat at the carpark and listened to music while staring at the star-less sky! i wished i had brought a book out or something. so in the end the both of us just stoned for two whole hours.. :/
reached home when it was almost twelve, but surprisingly, NOBODY WAS HOME. i was still the first to reach home. everything's in a mess now.

I MUST MUST MUST STRIKE OFF NO. 8 & NO. 12 BY TMR. :)

star-gazing;

2007-06-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

last day of lessons today! we dont have to go to school for the next two weeks! on the other hand, today is the last lesson with our beloved mrs fung! and possibly with miss yee as well. i dont understand why the school just had to change teachers in the last semester. and hello, its not just one, but THREE. :/

aiyo. like what enid says, i think im going to be lost in the cyber world soon. three days after not using the computer, i was totally lost and i didnt know where to start! :/ hahaha its going to be MUGGING WEEK for me next week. i have only one week left to catch up with my studies, but i still have lots of places to go to, and lots of things to do! went to the bishan "pasar malam" today and bought a pathetic sausage there. hahaha. oh, UK FUNFAIR IS STARTING TMR!! :)

many things happened in the past three days, not exactly that pleasant though. sometimes i wish i could just take back my words.
jessie : dont despair just because of what she said. im sure you're not the worst senior ever, because i see no reason why you cant lead. whether you're playing the alto or bari, just do your very best alright? and enjoy your last year in band. dont let her make you lost your passion. YOU CAN DO IT! :)

jessling : my new successor! okay its kind of unexpected, but im still quite happy for you. work hard with justin okay? you have a long way to go so you must work hard! you know what HER temper is like, so let her be la, just dont take her words too seriously. haha. STAY STRONG! :)

zhuer, ruijun, zhangdi : no matter what happens, everyone must stay strong alright? you all are the only ones left in altos, so you all must work doubly hard to prove to her that we're not as bad as what she thinks. dont be too disappointed cause there's still hope! JIAYOU EVERYONE! :)

I <3 STRONG & SEXY SAXES FOREVER.

hwa chong concert on tuesday! they played many pop songs, and i think they really have no lack of saxophone players. they have twelve players, which is like even more than our band! :/ anyway, i think im going for rj dsa! ehh cause they needed saxophone players so jiaying & i are going to give it a try! haha. :)

pictures soon!

living in self-deceit;

2007-06-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

class bbq was GREAT!!
1. the weather was really really good. supposedly, the sky looked gloomy when we cycled to downtown east, and it was raining at the other end of pasir ris, somehow we were just protected. :)
2. we cycled to the maze and took a ride inside, FINALLY.
3. the food we ordered was just nice, not too little & not too much!
4. bbq was successful, cause the food didnt turn out charred nor uncooked. MY CHICKEN WINGS ROCK LA. :)
5. we managed to play lots of games as a class. h20, duck duck goose, tug-o-war, WATER BOMBS!! :)
6. the playground is no longer under renovation, so we went there and had LOTS OF FUN! especially the huge bowl? hahaha and the spider web! YAY. :)
7. there were no frogs invading our bbq pit, so we werent grossed out. haha. except when we had to walk through the grass to go to the beach to pour the "champagne", chewpin made me piggyback her cause she was afraid of the frogs. I THINK I OWED HER TOO MUCH IN MY LAST LIFE. :/
8. bbq ended at ten plus, and jiaying's parents sent me home. :)

okay that sums up what we did for class bbq. it was really really fun. haha and its the first time i didnt clear up cause i was playing at the playground. heh.
MY TEN KNUCKLES ARE BURNT. and my face was red-hot after standing around the fire for more than two hours. hahaha.

yay im going out now. hwachong concert tonight!
SURPRISE SURPRISE. :)

no more nonsense for me;

2007-06-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

i have decided to forfeit my audition for dsa at vjc. which means i lugged home my tenor for nothing. oh well, could be my very last time playing it. :(

anyway study session with yanzhu today! cause there was no tuition.. haha. first, we went to prata house and yanzhu ate one pathetic plain prata, then we moved on to icekimo where i bought a single scoop ice cream and yanzhu bought her double scoop on waffle. :/
then "vulnerable" yanzhu found that place too cold and then we went to chermaine's condo to study! haha. the both of us just went to the bbq pit area and act like its our place. we even ordered ROOM SERVICE okay. then came yiling with two cup noodles. YAY SO NICE. :D
after studying for about three hours, we started chatting for another hour or so. woman's nature huh. haha. left that place at about seven plus. I DIDNT GET TO GO TO THE PARK TODAY. :(

class bbq tmr, i hope everything turns out well? :/

if what you need is time;

2007-06-03T04:24:00.000+08:00

YAY. newyorknewyork photos up! and more coming later.

GOODNIGHT. :)

the way we were;

2007-06-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

hello, its time for some overdue photos! haha. :)

newly appointed squad leaders - jayme & magdeline

yay my successors - jessling & tessa

cant see jessie, but presenting the new saxes leaders!

BANneD with ms sia :)

TANJIA :)

JACQ, my fellow partner during combine :)

TRIPLE JS! :D

lovely saxes :)

sexy saxes WE ROCK!

combined photo (omg yanzhu, saxyhornies POP rmb?)

saxes at the VJ concert :)

more than words;

2007-06-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

argh my turtle keychain broke off today.. so now i have one less turtle in my collection.. :(

had seaweed shaker fries for lunch! haha i finally got to tried it after so long.. wanted to buy the shrek ears also, but i realised i was broke.. then went for piano with my cousin. omg im supposed to learn one new exam piece by the end of the holidays. how how? :(

after piano, went jogging at bishan park. ah i havent been there for quite some time already! okay i went there and fed alot of mosquitoes la, but its still fun. oh yes, i found a more useful way to get rid of my emoness.. YAY!

studying makes me sad;

2007-06-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

RARH I AM SO ANNOYED.
my computer crashed a total of 7 times in half an hour! all because of the stupid video that i was making.. :(
to think they said its "lucky 7", i got so frustrated cause everything that i wrote was gone, not only once, but thrice!
oh but then again, maybe IT IS "lucky 7" cause then my computer stopped crashing already. :/

TANJIAYING OWES ME A TURTLE. :)
to reward me for i actually managed to collate 100 pictures of the both of us. YEAH I ROCK. :D but thats not the main highlight, all of us had lots of fun teasing two people today! okay i shall stop, cause its kind of mean eh?

VJ AUDITION THIS COMING MONDAY. its me first, followed by jacq, then jiaying & rachel chia! but all of us are taking different time slots, and they refused to put us together.. :( argh my instru's still not fixed, i havent prepared any songs, i have lessons on monday, NOW SHOULD I EVEN GO?

there was a blackout in the band room, so the lights were off and we couldnt even read the scores properly.. after self-prac with the whole section, we went to NEWYORK NEWYORK for dinner! yeah, six people shared one HUMONGOUS yankee burger and we were all bloated la. of course, we shared ribs and waffles too.. :) a little pricey indeed, but we enjoyed ourselves sitting in that small cabin and looking out for "potential boyfriends"! -coughs- HAHA.

its been a really really longggg time since i last lugged my instru home, but i just did. okay, its not exactly my instru anymore, its just a lonesome tenor waiting to be adopted. :/ and then i was practising in the room just now, until i realised my reed turned slightly red. my lips were bleeding la. (hahaha, orange reed cause of SUPER RINGS!)

i suppose it is no longer important as to whether or not they will still remember me after i leave. after all, life still must go on. and at least it was a ten good months. thats good enough. good enough to make a difference in my life. :)

okay, to "don't tell you", the song will play for more than once now, so you dont have to keep refreshing anymore. :)

YAY the video is finally done! but that also meant i spent the last 2 hours doing the wrong things. :/

so near yet so far;

2007-05-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

uhh im kind of forced to write this, but anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINGJUN!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS! haha this is much bigger.

VJ DSA AUDITION ON MONDAY, FIRST PERSON AT 8AM. :(

this is it;

2007-05-31T14:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VESAK DAY?

i actually gave up the chance to go to town with my cousin today okay, just so i could stay at home with my mum. i accompanied her for lunch, and spent another half the day watching tv with her. :/
well, at least I PRACTISE FILIAL PIETY TOO.

yesterday was such a boring day la, we went to school for one hour of maths, before taking the EL practice paper, which was SO UNINTERESTING. :(
then simin & i went to bishan interchange to book the bbq pit, while enid & jiaying went to Singapore Mint..
and sadly, i didnt manage to start my mugging session yesterday night. i just flipped through four pages of the history text, then downed some beer before going to sleep. WHAT KIND OF MUGGER IS THIS?

feeling super random now, I WANT TO LEARN THE ACCORDION?!

oh yes, somebody please help me with my testimonial? i totally forgot it was due today, and i havent actually started. :(

its a critical crisis;

2007-05-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

I AM CCA-LESS.
and it feels kind of weird.

four days after POP. but it doesnt feel like it. seems too late for me to regret, i think i havent treasured those times enough. & i miss them dearly. :(

whats worse, it just suddenly dawned on me that O levels is just HUNDRED AND FORTY-SIX days away! :(
okay, i swear, i will start AFTER TOMORROW, after i go back to the oh-so-clean band room, after i visit the oh-so-pretty juniors & after i look at the oh-so-intelligent conductor for the last time.

i must must MUST start mugging for O levels on Wednesday (which is like MISSION IMPOSSIBLE).
but for the sake of my straight A1s, i shall turn into a nerdy genius for the next 160 over days. :)

GRR I JUST SPOILT MY OVEN, NOW I CANNOT BAKE ANYMORE. NO MORE BROWNIES FOR EVERYONE. :(

oh yes, before i forget, we're supposed to rent a house and live together after all these nonsense okay? or if we're too broke we can just stay at FAIRY POINT. hahaha. :)

a hypocrite in a hypocritical world;

anatasia - at the beginning

2007-05-27T14:15:00.001+08:00

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

(i take back my words about wanting to put my "favourite" song. this song suits the atmosphere better. haha)

HAPPY POP 2007

2007-05-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY POP!
i aim to write a 2000 words essay in this entry. people, please be patient when you read it. :)

i shall just start with our section POP first. recount in chronological order. hahaha. after we left the canteen yesterday, our section went down to amk hub for dinner. it was supposed to be at NEW YORK, NEW YORK or maybe even FISH & CO., but somehow the queues really put us off and we went to WOW NOODLES instead. wow. then after dinner the sec ones left and we then took different cabs down to downtown east chalet! surprisingly we saw some horns people there, so we decided to spring a surprise on SEE YANZHU! :)

tried to stay up the whole night by entertaining ourselves with stupid shows, playing cards, eating cup noodles and most importantly, CAM-WHORING! i swear tanjiaying behaved as though she was drunk, she was so HIGH and we took pretty spastic photos! haha. we made so much noise, to the extent that the security guard came up to our room to ask us to lower down our volume. then we went over to the horns' room to borrow STEP UP, but somehow after we started watching, most of us went to sleep, leaving only jessie to stare at the tiny little screen. haha. we were supposed to wake up at 5 plus to watch the sunrise (aww, syf piece), but as such great procrastinators, we managed to persuade jessie & jessling to let us sleep in some more, and in the end we only woke up at 8am, after my mum gave me the “morning call”. checked out of the hotel at 10.30am, we were again, supposed to find somewhere nice to have our breakfast, but we ended up at the KOPITIAM outside the resort. seriously ah, i think the food there sucke, we lost our appetite just by looking/smelling the food. :/

after breakfast we split up to cab home to put down our stuffs and to get some rest, before meeting up to go for VJ concert again. here's when all the rotten incidents came.
1. the stupid taxi driver tried to be funny with us, then he refused to send jacq home after he dropped us
2. went home feeling super exhausted & sick but i didnt get to sleep much (only 15 minutes)
3. my mum left the report book at home so she asked me to pass it to her before the parents' meeting
4. i thought i was going to be late for the meet up with the section so i dashed out of the house without taking alot of things
5. i was packing my money while entering the lift and the naughty fifty dollar note just dropped right into the gap between the lift
6. i rushed all the way down to junction 8, reached at 3.45pm, only to find that not a single soul was there until like 4.15pm
7. i spent 18 bucks buying flowers, despite the fact that i was already broke
8. i was stoning at one corner of the shopping centre and this time another security guard came up to me to move me away :(
9. i waited a total of 1 hour and 6 minutes before the whole section was finally here (okay, but its not the juniors' fault)
this should explain why i looked super pissed off at junction 8. but i eventually got over the loss of fifty bucks when our section took neoprints. omg i havent actually stepped into the neoprint shop for like more than a year, i almost forgot how to take neos. the photos turned out pretty well i guess.
then it was time for dinner! AGAIN, we wanted to have something good, like swensens or sakae, but there wasnt enough time so we settled ourselves with pastamania. the SL (jessie tan yuxin) finally got to have a taste of the disgusting SL drink, which all of us tried anyway.

next, the cab ride to the college was a really hilarious one. we were supposed to think of dares for one another, and somehow we came up with really stupid ones, then ruijun jessie & i just started laughing out loud (with hysterical sound effects). i bet the driver must be super annoyed by our behaviour la. oh then we were on a mission to rescue the missing Incredible. we'd wanted to give it to mieoteng during the intermission, but somehow it just went missing and so we assumed it incredibly flew away. then, when we were going back to our seats, the usher was holding it and so we managed to recover it back again! :)

oh yes, sadly, our section started crying after this message which i typed in my phone. which says, " goodbye my dear juniors, your senior will miss you. :) " and it happened that they were playing the third movement of some song which sounded so beautifully sad, so we just ended up sniffing & crying despite the rest of the audience laughing at us. it was made worse when the VJ band started calling out the J2s to thank them for their participation in the band and blah blah. and we still couldnt recover after the concert so we stayed outside the theatre to cry/laugh/hug/talk/eat/take photos.

then we took a super long bus ride to junction 8 after the concert. made a lot of noise on the bus, but thats like normal, when you put a huge group of girls tgt. haha. POP officially ended when we alighted from the bus! :(

now, before i continue to rant, if YOU are someone who are not interested about my three & a half years in band, and doesnt like to read mushy stuff, then please skip the whole green chunk after this because i think i'd probably wail out buckets of sentimentality and nostalgia.

listening to all the different band songs that i have on my playlist now, & trying to recall all the highlights of SNSB. there were many different activities in which we participated in. band camps for nominations & swearing in; school activities such as weekly assembly, sports carnival, national day parade, jubilate, etc.; external activities like balloon hat, SYF & NBC. all these were really great opportunities for the band to shine, and we actually managed quite well. :) actually i think i'd just give anything to go back and try it all over again, really. i cant imagine how i'd have been if i'd joined another CCA like choir (i cant sing for nuts). i never regretted joining band, and never ever will regret. :)

i can still vaguely remember how its like, one whole big group of thirteen year old sec ones waiting to be auditioned. hahah, jacq, the ever-so-friendly squadmate was already telling ghost stories at the old specs stand la. and i remember ong yizhen was the one who interviewed me, and the question was "would you be able to take criticisms from the conductor?" and i replied confidently with a yes. true enough, ms sia was one who was rather biased and often scolded people really harshly, but i really think she is a terrific conductor, the one who brought us our first GOLD after decades. i really think that ms sia grew on us. she challenged us to be better musicians and under her & mr ong's tutelage, we really improved by leaps and bounds! i know i had cried many times whenever she scolded me, but to think back again, i really learnt a lot from what she said. :)

ms sia was the one who put me into saxophones section. :) and frankly speaking, it really wasnt easy to be put with two primary school sax players while i know nothing about what was a sax and how to play it properly. they were included into the main band shortly after they joined the band, while i was still stuck outside the band room. slowly we started becoming bonded as a squad. we formed sections with interesting names, like the three saxophonists being called Triple Js, the three trumpeteers being called UPS, and also the three percussionists being called the PRO. we all started off with Essential Elements, an interesting book with all the short & sweet songs we were easily amused with as sec ones. the first song we really got to play was Nocturne, and ms sia used to sing it in the "char siew pau, leong mai kia" way. :)

2005 was a SYF year. it wasnt easy for us, for we as sec twos, had to work really hard in order to pass through various tests and get a chance to participate in the SYF. el camino real was a tough nut to crack, but we managed really well and got a GOLD in SYF 2005! thank god, all our efforts paid off. :) i was playing alto sax then, but after the light blue badges passed out, i took over as the tenor while jacq became the bari player. DAMN BIG CAN.

when the grey badges left us just a year ago, i was made the sec two squad commander while jiaying became the SL & librarian and jacq, the ASL & ASC. after the usual celebrations, both jiaying and i cried ourselves to sleep on POP night, because we were feeling so scared & uneasy about becoming the leading batch.

SYF 2007 wasnt as smooth-sailing as what we wanted it to be like. we only managed a SILVER after a long-fought battle. but, SILVER IS THE NEW GOLD! so all of us just continued to put in our best efforts to improve the band. :)

today, leaving SNSB is a really sad affair. its like, band is where i spent most of my after-school times at. i remember when i was in lower sec, i used to go down for band pracs on tuesdays & thursdays and self pracs on every other days. that was when we had so much fun playing the different types of songs with the seniors. :) and especially during the SYF period, be it in 05 or 07, the band spirit is just so great & amazing. now, everything's over. and we wont have anymore opportunities to make beautiful music with the band. from someone who usually says "see you around in band tmr" to my fellow friends, i will now have to change it to "see you around in school if we have a chance to meet". i will really miss those times. :(

we've handed over the baton to the yellow badges, with grace & sarah leading the band as BM & DM respectively. i have faith in them, and every other yellow badge, that they would bring the band to greater heights! tonight, jiaying and i are most probably going to cry ourselves to sleep again, this time, its SCARED without the C(control), R(responsibility) and E(existence) and we're feeling SAD instead.

thanks alot to SNSB, BANneD, SEXY SAXES, BLUEBADGEBANDITS, COJS, SELF-PRACTORS, "JUSTIN" & everyone else who made my three & a half years of bandits life ever so wonderful. i will look forward to coming back to SNSB as an alumna member. :)

BANneD: thanks for all the great great memories that we've collected. we've really been through thick & thin, and despite the so called conflicts we had in our squad earlier on, we managed to push all those away and stand together as a squad to lead. today we shall step down with pride cause we know we've done our best, and also with confidence because we know that the next batch will do a great job as well. now JIAYOU FOR O LEVELS! :)

SEXY SAXES: POP this year was really really enjoyable, especially the times we spent at the chalet. we had a hell of a time doing all the things that we love (eg. cam-whoring). dont worry about the poor food we had, cause as long as we're together, im sure we wont mind even if we’re eating rubbish right? zhu'er & ruijun, try to be a little less les can? you all need to learn to work individually already. and please do listen to your SL & ASL. you all will have to help them, not add on to their worries hor. jessie & jessling, i believe you all will rise up to the ocassion and lead the section well, so dont disappoint all of us! take good care of the section! be sure to call us back for POP next year alright? fullerton eh? haha. I LOVE YOU ALL! :)

BLUEBADGEBANDITS: its been a great experience taking your squad for drills for the past few months, and i really learnt alot. you all dont have to be sorry about disappointing me in the past, cause i have already erased all those sad memories. everything thats kept are all the sweet stuff that you all have done for me. thanks alot and i can tell you all really put in alot of effort! :) right now, just continue to do your best and not disappoint your new sc alright? I WILL ALWAYS BE SUPPORTING ALL OF YOU! :)

COJS: it all started with CCA fair, and im really glad to know all of you. i appreciate your concern & trust for me these few months. thanks for all the sessions we have had together, im sure you all had fun making fun of me la, and discussing about everything under the sun. :) and thanks also for all the surprises you all had sprung on me, like the huge present i received on my birthday, and for the O level survival kit. i will really put it to good use, i promise. but you all must help me replenish okay? haha. signing off, your Monstrous Maria Maid(en). hahaha. I WILL MISS YOU ALL LOADS! :)

JUSTIN: my dearest "boyfriend" for the past twenty months or so, i really thank you for allowing me to make such beautiful music throughout this period. im so sorry that you're injured, i promise i will fix you real soon. and to whoever that im handing you over to, i hope she takes good care of you! SEE YOU SOON. :)

time when i started writing this entry : 12.34am
time when i finished writing this entry : 3.32am
wow, i took like about 3 hours to actually complete this long entry.

~~i guess, only a band freak would be interested to read the whole thing.~~ okay i take back my words. haha. CONGRATS, you made it here. :)

oh my god, im dead beat. pictures shall be uploaded slightly later. GOODBYE.

there's nothing good about goodbye;

2007-05-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

okay, sadly, its 18 and a half more hours to POP.

I AM SO SCREWED. :(

thats it;

2007-05-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

we got our class tee, finally. okay, its not exactly that fantastic, but its not that ugly either! :)

mrs sherwood said that postponing the geog test is out of the question, so its time for me to get mentally prepared to fail the script this time round (not like i havent failed it before). i am sorry i got so moody during the geog lesson today, i think i scared huimin and everyone else sitting around me.

stayed back in school to study with yanzhu, rachel & yiling. then leonie joined me to wait for cheryl before visiting gay. she looks quite good, but we all know she must be feeling really deprived & bored there. :( left at around seven plus, leonie & i decided to take a cab home cause we were all so drained, but we had a really good talk along the way. :)
acidic + alkaline = neutralisation
thanks for everyone's concern. i think i can still manage all these nonsense. and i learnt a new lesson today. just that the worst is yet to come.

THREE. its around 65 hours more to handover. :/

i feel like a teddy bear with its hands & legs dislocated from its body;

2007-05-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

okay, rewind a little, back to friday's CME lesson. chewpin's group presented their CME about the yellow ribbons project, and apparently it was so HEELARIOUS that we almost laughed our heads off. (i dont know how, but they just got my photo inside there as well :/) maybe they should really screen it to the whole cohort, cause other classes were watching it from outside the class as well. haha.

back to the present. today was spent making POP presents, POP presents and more POP presents. i totally ignored doing my hmwk, which is urgently due tmr, and somehow related to my physics SPA (O-levels), but i dont give a damn anymore. im so gonna fail the upcoming settlements test (80 pages long) because i havent even started, but i dont give a damn anymore. im so gonna spend more than 200 bucks on POP presents, and get scolded by my mum, but i dont give a damn anymore.
cause right now, i just want to enjoy the last day in band. :)
and i hope i wont be disappointed.
to celeste koh yuanxin aka gay, even though you will not be reading this right now, you're probably recuperating in the hospital, but i just want to let you know that we all cant wait for you to come back to school again! TAKE CARE & GET WELL SOON! :D

i stand by my beliefs;

2007-05-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

back from band camp. yes, our last band camp ever. and sleeping for half an hour only is definitely not enough, had such a bad "hangover" after breaking camp.
anyway camp wasnt that bad la, at least we carried out noms and conducting quite successfully, and got to have dinner as a section, play games as a group, breakfast as a squad, so on and so forth. even though it may seem kind of screwed, but i believe the sec three squad tried their best to make it a good camp, and their efforts are truly commendable. :)
(sidetrack a bit, i think "spoonfeeding" is quite an amusing word too. haha)
i mustnt spoonfeed anymore.
now POP is next, in just FIVE days time! omg first it was counting down with both hands & legs, and now im left with only one hand and five fingers. :( there's only this weekend left to prepare all the presents, but there's so much school work to do simultaneously and i dont have enough time!
and i really wonder what's going to happen after that. oh well, we will see.

sorry for all the times i wasnt there for you;

2007-05-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

stayed in school to study these few days, have been kind of fruitful i guess. but the moment i reach home, i just start to slack again. :/

CHEM TEST TMR. BAND CAMP TMR. its kind of amusing, cause both sound quite alike. hopefully everything turns out well. and i'll be back on saturday! :)

believe in yourself;

2007-05-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

ahh. its the time of sunshine after rain i guess.
drills assessment with the sec twos today. spent quite some time slacking outside the band room after that. I GOT MYSELF ALL WET & VIOLATED. -stares at elysia & xingjun respectively. hahaha.

here goes, the poem i wrote for thicksee
(and vetted by mrs sherwood :/)
my not-so-beloved thicksee,
lets make a visit to the sea.
together we can build sand castles,
you can sing and i will bustle.
my not-so-darling thicksee,
lets find some day and go for tea.
we can go and grab some dimsum,
while you eat i will kick your bum.
my not-so-kawaii thicksee,
so you think you're so cutesy?
sushuen thinks you're so cute,
but actually you just make me wanna puke.

and so much for trying to make a class tee, we have to re-decide the colours again. but at least the uncle started on the section tees! luckily UNCLE is nice and patient enough (sushuen, i know its love at first sight, hahaha). i hope everything will turn out good! :/

i think PPR this term is gonna suck big time. back to a double digit again. if only its the bigger, the better. :(
and i cant believe i actually dedicated today to slacking and making presents. okay, im going to stay for night study tmr, and make sure i complete two chapters of chem before tuition!!

NINE more days to POP. and we have only ONE more band prac left. :( :(

i'm so disgusted with you;

2007-05-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

I AM IN A FREAKING FOUL MOOD RIGHT NOW, CAUSE I JUST LOST ALL MY PRECIOUS PHOTOS WITHIN SECONDS JUST NOW. AND EVERYTHING SEEMS SO WRONG TODAY, EVEN THOUGH ITS MOTHERS' DAY.

jubilate is over. last staged performance for the red badges. kind of screwed the song, but whats most important, we felt the band unity & spirit burning within us. so even though things didnt turn out as good as planned, it was good enough for us. finale was quite fun too.

will everyone out there send me those pretty pictures we took before i die of desperation? :(

11 more days to POP.

if only there's a way to turn back time;

2007-05-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

hello world, im finally back to blogging again. haha.
super busy the last few days, trying to study for geog & physics, that includes the study session with enid yesterday. hmm it actually turned out to be a pig out session cause we had food practically every 15 minutes! hahaha. okay so the two tests were finally over today! geog was a killer for me, but oh well, its kind of expected though, the fact that i actually spent 5 hours studying the wrong things la. :( now physics is my only hope! haha.

on tuesday we had the finale practise. so the ten of us spent most of the band prac time at the hall. and while waiting for our turn, we played badminton! haha i won gay in one game, so she had to treat me to a $1 drink yesterday (which became two $0.50 drinks for me & enid). I LIKE PLAYING BADMINTON! too bad im not taking it for minor elective. but basketball with jiaying, chewpin, yixin, leonie & yanbing will be lots of fun too! :D

my dad fetched us from school after band today. dropped jiaying for her tuition, then sent enid, yanzhu and me to far east flora to get pretty flowers for jubilate tmr! and guess what, i brought 100 flowers home. then i suddenly thought about the HUNDRED FLOWERS CAMPAIGN that mao zedong initiated?! hahaha. now i wonder how am i going to lug all those flowers, plus my uniform, and books to school tmr morning, before 7am? :/

its our very last performance tmr, as a band. feeling kind of nostalgic yeah, so its gonna be cam-whoring time! especially when we get to stay back for finale, which is equivalent to more time for taking pictures! haha.

14 more days to POP. ahh im so gonna miss all the stupid things i did. and all the fun that we had!
oh yes, i spent like around hundred and fifty bucks on pop presents and the flowers just now. OMG I NEED MORE MONEY!!

against my conscience;

2007-05-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.

So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.

And when, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you.

i think this video is kind of touching. :)

2007-05-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

the whole morning was spent selling flags for special olympics at yishun bus interchange, with simin & jiaying. i gather there's quite alot of nice people there, cause there was really alot of people who donated (and quite generously as well). some funny encounters with some funny people. i think flag days can be quite fun, provided your bag isnt heavy enough to be a burden, and when you get good business. haha. then in between, we took a short break at northpoint, and we ordered desserts! and then old chang kee. wahhhh. after the flag day, rushed home for piano, then went to amk hub to get presents from artbox. i think the stuff they sell are so pretty. :)

i have a sudden craving for mahjong. but thats not how a sec four should behave? okay forget it, back to mugging for all the content-heavy tests next week.

ONE TOE DOWN. 19 more days.

if only forgetting something unhappy could be as easy as snapping of the fingers;

2007-05-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

REWINDD a little first.
wednesday was napfa test. and sadly i only managed a silver. because of my standing board jump. eh, that teacher is so annoying, she deprived me of my gold. :(

then yesterday was the interclass debate FINALS! oh finally finals. 4Charity vs. 4Truth. we didnt win, but we arent considered losers either. we got second! :) and we were rewarded with one whole basket of chocolates (time to loosen up and eat more chocolates), shared among the few of us and the whole class! :)

okay, back to today. ITS SUCH A WEIRD DAY. yes, weird's the best word i can think of, so far. cause i really cant explain how i am feeling, especially at the end of the day. :/

recess wasnt exactly that enjoyable, even though it was supposed to be. after all, prabs gave us a 10 minutes early dismissal and we had 1hr 10min of recess la. cause something unpleasant happened, and it kind of triggered my bad mood (which happened to go on for almost the whole day).

slept through chemistry because i started having a really bad headache. then when i woke up i was just asking huimin, "did i sleep through the midday prayer?" only then did we realise that there was no prayer today! :( then we tried playing hangman during physics. tsk, i practically shut my ears for all the lessons today.

went out of school for lunch, we bought pasta & omelette and microwaved them. the omelette was kind of cold, but tasty anyway. then went back to school for band, and drills.

supposedly, it was the last drills session and i jolly well jeopardized all my plans. :( then the sec fours played many songs, until we broke up into sectionals. LAST FRIDAY BAND PRAC ENDED JUST LIKE THAT.

ITS THE SECOND TIME ALREADY.

i think i pushed everyone too much today, even though it was so tiring. I AM SORRY. but, it will never get to happen again.
everyone says i need to be stricter, but i just cant do it. :(
20 more days to POP. i can easily countdown with my fingers & my toes.

when disappointment overwhelms anger;

2007-05-01T00:15:00.001+08:00

2007-04-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

this morning was like a total mad rush. oh, i was initially at the family lounge listening to mrs goh talk about the CIP, then i went back and before i could even step into the class, huimin pushed me away to get the cake for sherwood. and then we found out we didnt have any match sticks so we had to borrow money from ms khor to get the matchsticks. haha. 10cents. :/ anyway then we tried to light the candle at the level bench but stupid candle and wet and couldnt be lit, until yixin "dried" the wet wax. haha. so we sang bday song for sherwood, then gave her the cake. abit she cut the cake for mrs goh also, then the rest of the cake was for us! :)

uhh this random thought striked us after recess, and we thought of ordering pizza hut for lunch! okay, so chloe, jialin, sally, sushuen, louisa, huimin & i chipped in to get the SPLITZZA FEAST for lunch after school. sinful eh, but who cares? "whats the point of torturing yourself?" haha. but anyway its to mark the end of my "feasting period" and the "fasting period" shall start w.e.f 1st May 2007.

then went to guidance room to discuss about the english debate. THANK GOD. i dont have to represent the class to present on thurs, if not i will just disgrace the class in front of the entire secondary school. once again, THBT Singapore needs loosening up! :D

squad meeting in the band room shortly after. okay i think we quite kind of agitated during the discussion. but anyway, managed to get quite alot done today. and the rest of the time were just spent laughing at funny jokes. :)

here comes the not-so-nice part of the day. went to visit my granddaddy at gleneagles hospital. he just had an bypass operation this morning, and i overheard from my aunt that the condition wasnt that good. :( i was totally freaked out when i went into the ICU and i saw him lying on the bed with so many tubes around. and guess what, HIS CHEST SKIN WAS LEFT OPEN AND NOT SEWN BACK YET. just covered with a thin blanket. omg you wouldnt want to take a second look, seriously. aww i pity him, and i hope he get well soon!

okay tmr is LABOUR DAY! so everyone, enjoy the fruits of your own labour. HAHA.

believe it or not;

2007-04-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

VAS & PRIS WON THE DANCE FLOOR FINALS!
okay, actually i wanted PLATINUM to win. but i dont mind vas & pris, cause they were wearing a green set of costumes for the last dance. HAHAHA.

anyway after (my first) physics tuition, went to j8 with yanzhu. to look for sherwood's present, but couldnt find any. had a bread for lunch, then dinner shortly after, at botak jones! oh man, the serving is SO HUGE i only managed like 3/4 of it (THATS ALOT ALREADY). seriously, if i go on feasting like this everyday, i will soon turn into a BIG FAT PIG! :(

while i was taking 410 home today, i saw this motorist who dropped his wallet on the road, and his money was everyone on the road. he just stood there, hopelessly trying to pick up all the notes, and left the coins to roll into the drain (i guess). i kind of pitied him. then i heard this other passenger saying, "aiyo, so dangerous still stand in the middle of the road". i actually wanted to ask "if you dropped your wallet, wouldnt you do the same?" okay, but i kept my mouth shut. HOW CONTRADICTING LA.

oh shit, i havent done a single hmwk, and i never read any books over the weekends. and yanzhu was just telling me her classmates already started revising last year's topics. WTH, THEN WHAT AM I DOING NOW? :(

what i can do, you can do better;

2007-04-28T20:07:00.000+08:00

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one.
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend!

ahh im starting to like the GIRLFRIEND song. kept singing it with sushuen & huimin during lessons yesterday. but its so wrong! haha.

walked around AMKHUB after piano, and the air-coned bus interchange is finally open. tried the KFC meltz with my cousin today. i finally tried it, but not that fantastic though. then went to COURTS and AMK library.

oh and i tried asking the buses to decide for me whether i should cut my hair today, and supposedly "the bus said no". so i went to the supermarket instead, and got ingredients for spaghetti.

tomorrow is going to be a busy day. one, we NEED to meet up for debate. two, i'm going to cook lunch for everyone at home! YAY. three, i'm going for physics tuition with yanzhu. four, i have a dinner date with my mum, and we're gonna get more good food!

I CANT BELIEVE IM GOING FOR MY FIRST TUITION IN MY WHOLE SECONDARY LIFE! argh, i was supposed to keep a clean record of no tuition la. but looks like i cant handle it by myself anymore. :/

i hope its gonna be of help; and not at my own expense.

2007-04-28T01:19:00.000+08:00

RAINY DAY. SPORTS DAY.

lessons in the morning. then chienjie, huimin, maple, sushuen, jiaying & i cabbed down to j8 and ate at secret recipe. ooh the marble cheesecake is like heaven la, but sinful as well. :/ then it started pouring like nobody's business and we waited for quite long before we managed to hail a cab back to school.

it was still raining so sports day was postponed for like an hour or so. and the band didnt get to play the marches la. no chance to play the marches for the last time. :( so basically we just fooled around, taking lots of photos (in our ever-so-beautiful band uniform) and making lots of noise inside the music room. until after the cheer routine, we had to change back to our house tshirts. but anyway, we didnt join our houses still. stayed in the band room to go through the forms. and thats when all the trouble started. :(

this is the last one, yet i dont really feel anything about sports day. NOT AT ALL. apparently i just stayed in the band room most of the time. no longer interested about cheering together with the house, no longer interested at watching how the competitors run, no longer interested in the combined cheer, no longer interested in the results & prize presentation. actually its not a very good sign? oh well. or maybe because i didnt have the mood.

red house WON. followed by blue, yellow & then green.

section dinner followed after that. went to SUMO HOUSE and ordered quite alot of food to share. then they gave us complimentary fried fish too. in the end we couldnt finish all the food. just reached home and took a bath before i came online. :)

HELLO, STOP THINKING YOU ARE SO GREAT OR WHATSOEVER, CAUSE OBVIOUSLY YOU ARE NOT. :(

why did it have to end up like that;

2007-04-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

things are getting kind of ugly now. or maybe we're exposed to it only at this point of time. suddenly the world seems so filled with 黑特热安德杰乐思西. all i can do is to tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day. but, the better tomorrow never seemed to come. :(

its all about integrity;

2007-04-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna get a single digit for the population test. so much for being "not in the mood to study" the day before. argh, i guess i deserved it. :(

went through the fanfare & marches for sports day again. omg ms sia flared at me. SCARY LA. reminiscing the previous syf, Yanzhu, Leonie, Peiting, Jiaying & I played El Camino Real & Singapore Rhapsody once through. i totally <3 el cam, its like A GOLDEN PIECE. haha.

then went to turf city for a dinner with my family. guess who i saw! uhh so we ate like lots of raw stuff. and i was brave enough to try everything! even though my dad dipped a little too much of wasabi and i starting tearing almost after every bite. :/ spent like thousand over bucks for dinner, you can just imagine how bloated i got. then dad drove us around to "sight see" and finally home.

its gonna be our last sports day tmr! but sadly, there's still extra lessons in the morning. what a spoilsport. :( but anyway, i shall play the marches with pride, and enjoy every single bit of the sports day! oh and take lots of pretty pictures. :)

cant figure out what you're thinking;

2007-04-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

it wont hurt to figure this out as well. haha.
一是沙吃太尔英的爱

its TWO POINT FOUR KILOMETRES RUN today!
err i dont know whether to be glad or not.
apparently i improved by 3 seconds compared to last year, but its still a snail speed timing. i refrained by drinking water in the morning, yet i still had stitch from the third round. so i slowed down alot after that. :(
WELL, AT LEAST 1/6 OF NAPFA IS OVER!

chinese compo test sucked ALOT.
one, chinese was right after pe lesson & it was so warm.
two, the question was so tough i didnt even know what to write about. 循规蹈矩与墨守成规
three, we took a long time to settle down so we didnt have enough time to complete it, and zhanglaoshi was flaring up, so most of us handed in only one sheet of paper (obviously not enough to meet the min. 500 words limit)

and everyone was so lethargic during physics. oh and somehow i changed part of the lyrics to a song and it became a inducing song. induce what? heh heh.

after school went down to the band room for a short self prac with enid. jessie & lijie were there too. then went home and took a LONGGGGG nap and i had to force myself to wake up and study geog. :(

my left eyelid has been twitching since this morning.
I SENSE SOMETHING UNPLEASANT COMING UP. :/
i think i just landed myself in a pile of shit.
i hope things will stay this way;

2007-04-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

this week was supposed to be a good one, because there's the school holiday & sports day, and one test only. but, it didnt start off that well..

yesterday was the unscheduled school holiday for us, so yanzhu, jiaying & i went shopping for ~~pop presents~~ bags, wallets & pencilcases. met yanzhu at j8 first, then went to raffles place for thai buffet (with her mum, hahah), and trained down to town to meet jiaying. and after buying our stuff from art friends, we went to look for bags! err jiaying & i spent like 3-4 hours visiting all the possible shops that sell the kind of bags we were looking for, but we couldnt find what we wanted. :( but the most ironic thing was, we were quite pek chek and we stepped into this random shop at velocity, and we found what we wanted (or at least, we got our stuff from there). jiaying bought a wallet while i bought a new bag. all in all i spent like 6 hours shopping but i only got a bag. :/

started the morning with the sports day rehearsal. stood as a band at the hockey pitch. aiyo there were so many times i got so pissed off i think my juniors were so afraid to talk to me. ah well, maybe i got off from the wrong side of the bed today.

but lessons in class were much better, cause my oh-so-wonderful partner kept singing with sushuen and they really made me laugh like mad. HAHA. oh and sushuen treated me to a donut from the donut factory. they actually queued two hours plus for it yesterday. :)

~~ponned~~ missed physics extended so we stayed in class instead. oh sushuen started her funny accent again. haha. waited for jiaying and simin to come back then we went down for band! went through the marches for a while, after which we had drills. initially there were only four people? then slowly more came, and even yanzhu & chia joined in. haha. quite a nice session i guess.

i was supposed to study population, but some "pressing issues" that occured spoilt my mood. so now im into studying people instead. :/

try and figure this out:
哎敏耳八德木德突的爱 :(

there's 2.4 tmr, I AM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT OKAY. :(

its entirely up to you;

2007-04-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

junction eight-ed with my cousin today, we were looking around for a birthday present for my mother's godmother? haha. in the end we bought like really stupid stuff. :/
then went "grocery shopping" at fairprice. bought lots of nice GREEN vegetables and we shall have lots of fun making the different types of salads! :) then just when i was about to go home, saw ruijun at the bus stop, and she practically JUMPED when i called her. haha.

YAY going out tmr, to get POP presents with yanzhu, jiaying & simin. and maybe find myself a nice new bag? haha hopefully. :)

everyone's cutting their hair, what about me? :)

those significant words from you;

papa roach - scars

2007-04-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

2007-04-21T19:29:00.000+08:00

WHAT A TRASHY DAY. :(

2007-04-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

was on mc yesterday, but i still went out anyway. met yanzhu & jiaying at j8, to study for amaths test! and saw many people there, like the et and trombone sections, and also jasape! it was quite a fruitful session, yanzhu taught us how to memorise cos & sin using our 5 fingers. haha.

so amaths test was today. and it was so tough i couldnt do many questions. i cant do amaths for nuts. :( and luckily we found out that debate is two weeks later, so we have more time to prepare now.
oh then the SO people came back from SYF and they got a GwH. and the school announced it like as soon as they received the results. initially felt quite happy for them, then zhang started talking about how difficult it is to maintain the results, and uhh i just started crying again. abit stupid maybe, but its really damn sad to think about us? :( oh well, congrats to SO anyway. and chinese dance, they got a GOLD like a few days ago.

stupid girl(s). i hate ~~her~~ them alot alot ALOT. was feeling super pissed towards the end of the day, started snacking on ruffles even though i still had a sorethroat (actually i already started eating after maths test), stomped around in class, then i saw SOMEONE passing by our class. so i just walked out of class, shouted "STUPID GIRL" then i turned and walked back to class. what a nice way to vent my anger. and i dont freaking care if she heard it, it was meant for her anyway. at least i felt slightly better after that. :)

physics ended early, and there wasnt any chem extended, so simin, jiaying and i decided to get out of school for lunch. walked past all those hawker centres and we ended up at shop n save, where the two of them bought drinks and ice cream and i ate tangyuan at the tauhuay shop. :) then went back to school for drills & band. ahh drills is so screwed today? quite alot of unpleasant things happened along the way. anyway we just practised marches for the upcoming sports day. feels weird without having to practise so hard for SYF anymore. :/

to think about it, it was THAT hair that made us more hopeful of getting a gold, it was THAT hair that made me spend time tying braids on the morning of SYF day, and it was THAT hair and thats why we didnt get to tune together as a section, argh. and we didnt get gold.
AH DAMN, I WANT TO CUT MY HAIR SHORT ALREADY.

we, the sec fours, only have 5 weeks left in band. i will really have to cherish the remaining band practices. and start making POP presents! wah.

this post is so random. oh wells.

silver is the new gold;

2007-04-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

third time to the doctor within a month. weak or what. :(
just now isabel called to ask about SS test tmr, and the moment i spoke she was like doubting if she called the correct person. i really lost my voice now! but yanzhu likes the "sexy" voice. haha.

anyway we managed to win debate again! we beat diligence, and now we're in the finals. and that means we're gonna have to do the last round right in front of the whole school! EEKS, annoying la.

hmm i kind of got over the results already. even though it still feels a little sad whenever we mention the word SYF, SILVER or whatever that has got to do with it. i guess we need some more time, to get over the "mourning period".

its not the only thing we're living for;

2007-04-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

SUNRISE AT PASIR RIS PARK ON 14/04/2007:

more pictures next time.

if only it helped;

2007-04-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

thanks for all the encouragement before we went in to play,
thanks for all the consolation after we received our results.
& sorry for all the disappointment, we've let you all down.

mad rush at 6.15 in the morning, everyone was trying to get their hair tied, giving out little notes, chocs & flowers, setting up their instrus and tune up, doing all kinds of things that people would do just before syf.
i realised, we didnt actually get to tune as a section. :(

the morning wasnt that good cause the brass bus came a little late due to heavy traffic jam. but we knew, we all knew that things would get better after that.
the 12 minutes on stage was a long and horrible one. part 5 of sunrise sounded totally off, and some other screw-ups along the way. we just didnt perform the best that we could.
after that we all just broke down outside the hall. sign of relief or regret? i dont know. then we managed to cool down, listened to the other bands, and waited for the results. :(
at first we, the sec four squad, were sitting together, holding each other's hands. but when the emcee went "Band No. 133 CHIJ St Nicholas Girls' School ..." we all just broke the chain and bent down to cry.

apparently all our hard work didnt not pay off as well. obviously we were disappointed. having 4 days of band prac every week, going down for self prac every other day, intensive band prac just before SYF, practising how to stand/bow/sit, repeating the band cheer time and time again to boost our morale, tying french braids early in the morning so that we can impress the judges, sending positive brain waves, chanting "we want GOLD" and everything else just didnt work. :(

the bus ride back to school was a really long trip. most of the bandmembers just fell asleep. the rest, just sat there and stoned. we were all too tired, drained of our energy. mrs cheong tried to comfort us again, but then we all know it didnt help much. after all its not that easy to get over it so soon.

me, jacq, ulyssa, eleanor, jiaying, yanzhu, jessie, jessling and some other sec twos cabbed down to j8 and ate lunch at cafe cartel. then cassandra came and told us that the school announced our achievement at 2.30, after most of us already left school.

okay after ranting, i think its time to accept the fact. we're no longer a gold, but a silver band. yes its a little disheartening, but we'll get over it, after a while. WE WILL.
i guess its not that bad after all, its just that the judging is way too strict this year.

SYF ~~2005~~ 2007

14 3 GWH
24 16 GOLD
74 67 SILVER
33 58 BRONZE
3 6 COP

the miracle did not work this time, but two years down the road, we will work hard for the GOLD again! SNSB BRAVO!

if we're that insignificant, then don't bother;

2007-04-15T15:24:00.000+08:00

last update was on tuesday cause after that it was either MUGGING-FOR-TEST days or PLANNING-FOR-CHALET days. haha.

cousin's dinner at hyatt hotel on wednesday night. it was quite sweet i guess, but i was more into the studying for geog mood. reached home at like midnight, and i still had to study for agriculture test the next day, with my head giddy and all. :(

celebrated international friendship day in the hall, and the sec threes performed. then it was health check at MPR2. hmm the geog test was not as difficult as i thought, but i didnt manage to finish the paper. its like, i wrote at full blast speed but still couldnt finish.
but on a lighter note, band was really fun. cause we sounded really good, and both ms sia and mr ong were in a rarely good mood, so they kept cracking jokes and making us laugh. then we also decided to tie french braids on syf day. yay lucky pretty braids. :)
back home and i spent the rest of the time packing my bag for stayover and studying for chem test the next day.

received a HUGE turtle early friday morning. haha. then i had it seated on the teacher's chair and it accompanied me through chem test. :)
this time we didnt play as well, so they were kind of disappointed. no more "ALOHA" or "SEVEN GODS".
after band rushed home to get my stuff, then mum fetched me to downtown east.

band on saturday again. at first we thought we sounded horrible, and ms sia kept picking on TENOR, which is me la. lips got really sore, and so were my fingers. but somehow, after the break, we sounded miraculously good! haha. ms sia didnt scold saxophones at part 5, and the "ALOHA" and "SEVEN GODS" jokes were back. :)
went back to downtown east again. :)

okay, im exhausted. shall continue my downtown east story later. :)

the ~~bane~~ band of my life;

2007-04-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

band today was like woahh. first we went to the hall to practise how to walk up and down the stage, then we had a "destress session" in the new music room. mr cher had a talk with us, and at the last part he played soft music for us to relax. HOW DISTRESSING. but i appreciate his efforts though, to try and make his voice a little more charming. :/

its exactly one week left to SYF. i know we should cherish all the remaining band pracs, like what huimin say. SYF seems so scary, yet im quite excited & nervous. omg we better not screw it up!

second day of SYF doesnt seem any more relaxed though. st patricks is the first band to get GwH, hopefully not the only band. then sadly, cat high and orchid park dropped from GwH to Silver, like the other bands yesterday. ITS DAMN SCARY LA!

` JESS LING ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE HAPPY? 7 ♥3 faith! says:
i think that we might be able to create a miracle
` JESS LING ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE HAPPY? 7 ♥3 faith! says:
and get gold with honours and scare the hell out of ms sia
[j] i [n] g [w] e [n] says:
yeah!
[j] i [n] g [w] e [n] says:
we will get GwH!
[j] i [n] g [w] e [n] says:
haha
` JESS LING ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE HAPPY? 7 ♥3 faith! says:
ya!
` JESS LING ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE HAPPY? 7 ♥3 faith! says:
we will get GwH!

a motivating chat with my junior. okay we must believe that we can get the GOLD, or even GOLD WITH HONOURS! remember the law of attraction! WE WANT AND WE WILL GET THE GOLD WITH HONOURS! :D

on the other hand, physics SPA was not as bad today.
at least im sure i didnt screw it as badly as the one before.

shit, i feel damn guilty today cause
1. i did not run at all today.
2. i broke my resolution and i ate in class. :(

seeing is believing;

2007-04-09T19:53:00.000+08:00

ITS A BAD START. :(
FIRST DAY OF SYF FOR BAND, 1 COP, 12 BRONZE, 6 SILVER, 5 GOLD & 0 GOLDWITHHONOURS.
WHAT KIND OF BLOODY SHIT RESULTS ARE THESE?!

TKGS got gold again, no gold with honours. TEMASEK & VICTORIA both dropped from gold with honours to silver. most of the bands dropped from silver to bronze. AHH. :(

okay spent like 2 hours plus collating the results.
had to go and dig out the schools' results two years ago, then compare with today's results. TEDIOUS OKAY. but i guess i just had nothing ~~better to do~~ else i felt like doing.
in conclusion, out of the 24 bands today, 2 are new bands, 4 improved, 10 maintained and 8 deproved. :(
hopefully the judges will realise they are really too strict then be more lax after these few days.
WE REALLY MUST GET THE GOLD!!!

cabbed to j8 with jiaying and simin after school. wanted to go and get "something" but then the "something" was out of stock! grrr. we were so depressed la. made us waste time going there. but anyway the 12 bucks i saved for that "something" was spent on cab, FOOD and books instead.
simin, go figure out what that "something" is! haha.

shit, physics spa tmr, and i haven revised any of the worksheets.
GOOD LUCK MAN. :(

GOLD, thats all we want & need;

2007-04-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

today's band prac was like shit, at least for me. I SUCK. :(
i couldnt even play in tune and i couldnt hold the notes.
ms sia scolded our section and threatened to cut players.
everyone's like damn worried now, its not how we should behave one week before syf! :( :( :(

after band jiaying wanted to accompany me to the doctor, and the stupid nurse refused to sign me up because she say the clinic closes at 12.30pm. hello, i was there at 12.25pm! it was such a wasted trip, and i felt really bad cause jiaying had her heavy instru with her! :(

supposedly i left for piano, but after piano i saw jessie still at the bus stop! so i called her to go with me to amk hub (again) to get stuff for coming chalet. bought like lots & lots of junk food. OH SHIT, SINFUL. then took a bus home, hands filled with so many bags of tidbits! hahaha.

came back and took a nap, and my mum FINALLY brought me to see a doctor at night. i got scolded for seeking treatment after so long, its not even my fault la. but anyway its gastritis and luckily not anything more serious. but the medicine looks way too gross. :(

today's post is full of :(
i ate alot today. bread for breakfast, sausage prata for lunch and porridge for dinner!
random people do random things;

2007-04-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

didnt manage to see the doctor today cause its GOOD FRIDAY and all the clinics are closed. :(

anyway went down today to watch the other bands play.
my mum drove yanzhu and i to SCH, there were like so many bands in the hall itself, and only two rows of st nicks people. hah. then peiting came after us and sat beside me.
all the bands played so well la. even though i couldnt really recognise the other bands, except tkgs and cedars. oh gosh i think cedars improved quite alot, and they really deserve a gold now. and we must get the gold too! :)

after we listened to all the bands once, i trained to city hall with yanzhu and walked to bras basah complex, only to find that the art friends there was closed. :( then we went to the one at taka instead, and bought many many stuff! then yanzhu's parents came to have dinner with her while i left to look for jessie they all cause i didnt want to go home yet. walked around taka for a while more and then i took a bus home.
you see this? i ate porridge for lunch and drank carrot apple juice for dinner. :)
be prepared for the worst;

NICK LACHEY - I CANT HATE YOU ANYMORE

2007-04-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
I can't hate you anymore.

2007-04-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

bad muscle aches today, it feels as though my body will just dislocate anytime. :/ so didnt jog during recess today. I ATE WHOLEMEAL EGG TOAST. and spent the rest of recess "conquering" physics.

oh yay i talked to mrs sherwood today, and she agreed to let me change my seat, so i can sit with huimin again! but huimin was absent so i could only message her, and she sounded really happy over the phone. :D

house meeting was uhh boring? we just sat there and did one prop each, and spent the rest of the time fanning ourselves cause the drama studio air con wasnt switched on or something. then there were the lower sec students dancing behind. after school we went to draw lots for debate, we're the opposition again, and this time we're against diligence! now both are prabs' classes, she cant help any of us anymore. :(

screwed physics big time. the paper is so difficult! and mr gan told us to practise the tys, but none of those i studied came out. :( oh and during the paper, there were some unknown instruments playing merry widow and i got distracted and started humming along with it. tsk.

sectionals before combined. i was feeling queasy and jessie said i looked "狼狈" la. but anyway it didnt hurt as much after band.. dad came and fetched jiaying to tuition before sending me home. I ATE RICE WITH SOUP. okay?
there's the SCH rehearsal tmr, yanzhu and i are going to get presents and then marvel at the other bands. :)

my random new resolution: i will not eat any snacks in class. i will say NO to snacks just like how i would to reject drugs. so people, please dont tempt me anymore. :)

there aint no fairy godmother;

2007-04-04T22:08:00.000+08:00

english debate was yesterday, and we managed to beat grace's team. i dont know if its a good thing or not, cause some of us most prob wont be able to make it for the next round. but at least, we didnt throw our face away!

went for band after that, and i survived sectionals + combined with my oh-so-deadly stomachaches. and its still hurting now. maybe there's a hole somewhere in my stomach?

ran a total of 8 rounds today, 4 during PE and 4 during recess with jessie. it was a really good workout, but we werent really training for speed, we just jogged and chatted at the same time. :)

then went to the canteen (ah i wasnt supposed to go there), bought a drink and went back to class. i ate an apple! okay maybe three quarter of it, cause mr gan came before i could finish it so i threw the rest away. and i didnt manage to buy food during lunch cause we only finished photocopying notes at like 2.25pm.

there was house prac, but basically boonyi and i just sat behind the specs stand studying the formation of lightning, then mr gan was there so he helped to explain to us too! oh freak, there's physics test tmr. I DREAD PHYSICS. :(

CO got a GOLD! lucky for them, their syf is over already. even though they werent really pleased with their results, they wanted GOLDwHONOURS. okay, so ours is next, in like 13 days' time. :/

i am off to EAT. if only i could.

a kite bounded by strings;

2007-04-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

sat at my new sitting arrangement today, i quite like the people around it, but then i cant see clearly at that seat (stupid whiteboard reflection) and the fan is so freaking comfortable it makes me feel more sleepy than ever. :(

prabs didnt come today, so we had a hard time settling the debate stuff during english. oh i gave post-its and chocolates for my sitting partners and a few more people! :)

went jogging with jessie during recess, then enid came to join us after 2 rounds and we ran for another 2 rounds. so that makes it 4 rounds! after i went back to class, sally and friends said my face was as red as a ripe lobster. :/

basically the bland and tasteless 50 cents macaroni during lunch lasted me the entire day. enid and jiaying broke their fasting cause they were really too hungry by lunchtime. tsk im having such a tight budget and i get so tempted to buy more food everytime im in the canteen! :( okay, i shall try not to step into that place from now.

took a bus home with jiaying after maths class, i realise i havent been going home with her for quite some time! but i was feeling damn moody because everything seemed so long and tiring. :( so i came home and plunged straight into bed for like one hour plus. forgot to revise for stupid physics test. :(

debate prelimaries tmr, im kind of hoping we can win this round because its supposed a biased motion and it wouldnt be nice if we lost it. but then again, if we get in, its going to another tough preparation ahead. oh well, we will see how it goes.

attitude breeds passivity;

2007-04-01T18:44:00.000+08:00

oooh, it's pictures time!

4 CHARITIANS ON THE BOAT

at the port, this time with mrs sherwood

5/8 of combined clique in GREEN UNIFORM :)

chermms, jasape and me, GREEN ROCKS!

charity combined clique :)

okay thats it. I AM REALLY BORED.

[edit]
more photos cause chewpin just sent them to me.
i guess she just wanted to see herself on my blog. :)

chewpin taking me taking her

chewpin, yixin, simin and me :)
[/edit]

pictures of you and me;

2007-04-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

THIS YEAR'S APRIL FOOLS IS SO BORING LA. :(
i spent the day making stupid plans, but there's nobody around for me to trick.

home alone;

2007-04-01T17:08:00.000+08:00

These are the rules: Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

i got tagged by Enid. :/

so here goes, the six weird things about me:
1. i like to buy lots of chocolates but i always have to give them away cause i cant eat them. CHOCOLATES MAKE ME FAT. :(
2. merry widow is the only song i have been listening to on windows media player, since the day after SCH rehearsal.
3. at this age, i still like to play with the toy vending machines. i can spend like ten bucks a day playing with those. DEPRIVED CHILDHOOD, i guess.
4. i like to do cross-stitches, but it always ends up half done because i am too lazy to complete it.
5. i like to switch on all the electrical appliances in my room, while i am watching tv in the living room. what a waste of electricity? okay its not exactly a weird fact.
6. i strive to make my house, or at least my room, full of nice GREEN things in future! :)

okay done, FINALLY. had to squeeze all my brain juices to think of the 6 weird facts about me. now, six people to continue the game. :)
1. yanzhu
2. jasmine
3. chermaine
4. isabel
5. jessling
6. jessie

2007-03-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

celebrated carina's birthday before band in the morning, then someone came by so happily and stared at the cake, too bad he doesnt deserve a share. how could he misuse his authority and take advantage of the situation. i was so freaking pissed before combined, i practically rolled my eyes everytime i talked to him.
I SWEAR, I AM NEVER EVER GOING TO LET HIM MAKE USE OF ME AGAIN.

luckily band prac was a fruitful one, the japanese number one band conductor, Mr Ito came to conduct us today. he's cool cause he plays the trumpet with a slight vibrato. like WOW. and he's so cute, cause his actions were quite funny, and he has this dictionary to translate his words into english so we could understand. his wife and daughter were there too, super "kawaii" japanese. :)
think everyone enjoyed this session alot. if only ms sia could be as fun as this..

anyway, shueli, jingmin and huiwei came back to visit us! but shueli left early so didnt get to talk to her. after band, went for lunch with jingmin, huiwei, yanzhu and pamela. pepper lunch at amk hub! wanted to take photos, but stupid yanzhu's camera died so we ended up using jingmin's phone instead. :) then everyone left while i went for piano.

after piano, went back to amk hub to get chocolates, saw jessie they all so i joined them to walk around. we decided to take a bus to bishan park, but it started raining the moment we got off the bus. HOW SUAY! but we just ignored the rain, and played at the playground, taking spastic photos and videos. stayed there and rotted for like 3 hours? until this little girl came and asked me to let her take the swing. hah. then went to thomson plaza to use the toilet. and spent more time talking at burger king. :/ in the end, jessie was SO LATE for church.

my mum's damn freaking pissed with me cause i exceeded the phone bill like mad. i really mean MAD. so now its either i get my phone confiscated or i pay for my own bill.

FROM NOW ON, I AM GOING TO SKIP RECESS AND LUNCH AND SAVE ALL MY MONEY TO PAY FOR THE BILL. even so, its not enough. :(

oh, jubilate iv on 11 may, 7.30 at University Cultural Centre. tickets anyone? i supposedly had three people to sell it to, but now none of them are buying it from me. :(

hear the children weep;

2007-03-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

havent been updating for quite some time yeah, busy with band and studying for tests. I OFFICIALLY SCREWED DIFFERENTIATION TEST TODAY. but i dont give a damn anymore la.

mrs sherwood put up the new seating plan today, and all of us are so upset now because she promised minimal changes yet she pulled me and huimin to both ends of the class. i will miss my current seat, and all those people around it! but at least i get to sit beside yixin now. i know sushuen's jealous of me. haha.
aww. okay, i promise i shall post shout-outs soon, when i am in the mood.

debate workshop on wednesday, then hitched a ride from huimin's cab to amk before going for piano. i killed a bloody mosquito with black and white strips, and the blood was extremely red and sticky. i wonder who's blood will be so fresh and sweet. :/

anyway went for port trip yesterday, we missed house practice because of this. the speaker which came, mr wong, was damn funny cause he always harped on the same point and he goes out of tune sometimes, if not, most of the time. hah, but i paid attention to what he said okay. "singapore became the busiest port in 1984", "the two types of cranes are key cranes and yard cranes.."
poor simin suffered from motion sickness, not on the boat, but on the bus la. cause the bus was jerking quite terribly. anyway charitians were singing alot of songs on the bus, and here's some funny conversations that happened on the bus, proves how critical charitians can get. :/

between lou, jasape, tixi and me:
lou - i want to puke already, its so sick can.
jas - ooh, lets all puke together la.
me - yeah, when we see you then we feel like puking right?
jas - aww, i thought i was a pretty sight?
me - yeah, a pretty awful sight indeed.
tixi - good one! :/

then between sally, weiting and tixi:
sally - help us think of debate points can, in chinese also can, then we translate to english ourselves.
wendy - you think my english very lousy is it?
tixi - hey, we dont have to think so, its already a fact and we already know. :/

then went back for band when we returned to school. still managed to catch the merry widow orchestra video! even though we thought it was quite funny, i think those bands are really disciplined and play damn well la. WE NEED TO LEARN FROM THEM. oh but ms sia looked quite satisfied with the band's performance yesterday. jiayou, we can all do it together! :)

gone kind of crazy the past two days, especially at night, cause studying drives me mad. but feel more relieved now that the tests are over, and there's only physics next week!

went to watch Mr Bean's Holiday at jubilee just now, and the show was really hilarious. but i didnt really laugh alot cause i was damn distracted by some random thoughts. but the movie is quite nice la, those on my left were laughing like mad people. then went mos to chat for a little while and came home only at 10.30. as usual, got scolded for breaking my curfew.

okay, what a long post. there's band tomorrow, and the jap conductor will be coming. OOH I CANT WAIT.

why only with me;

2007-03-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

SCH rehearsal was yesterday, turned out fine i guess. 20 out of 27, no more bargaining okay. haha.
came home very late, there was like a bicycle accident outside school then and it was super freaky. anyway i slept only at 2am, cause i had to wait for my dumb hair to dry, and also study for geog test. :/

so super tired today, my eyes became half of what it usually looks (uhh but they say it looks more normal la).
couldnt really pay attention during lessons today, cause i really felt like sleeping la. english oral act was stupid, cause i cant act for nuts. and practically crapped through chinese compo test after school, i couldnt even be bothered to think of any story line. just tried to reach the minimum word limit and i left my story there. tsk.

ended up late for band, and it was combined already. ms sia took us first, then mr ong came. oh my goodness he's damn hilarious la. especially the last part, during the presto, he ask us to be happy, so he just kept bouncing up and down, and all of us ended up laughing at him instead of concentrating on the song. then his HUNGARIAN friend called, and he said his name was i-forgot-what, but it sounded like CHI-KO-BAK, so i started laughing again. oh oh, and the visitor sticker he initially put on his pocket ended up at the back of his pants by the end of combined. HAHAHA.

went for dinner with my dad, after he waited more than an hour in the carpark. some kind of communication breakdown happened somewhere la. my parents are suddenly so nice to me again, I KNOW WHY. its like a hidden motive behind all these. :/

STOP. dont let me find out that you did, if not
I MEAN WHAT I SAY.

i live by the principles of reverse psychology;

Blue October - Hate Me

2007-03-25T14:15:00.000+08:00

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head.
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed.
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone.
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home.
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain.
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space.

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months,
it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the
one thing I won’t touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you, for holding my head up late at night. While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate. You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take.
So I’ll drive so ~~fucking~~ far away that I never cross your mind.
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave.
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I made.
And like a baby boy I never was a man.
Till I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand.
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be.
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

2007-03-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

lost control and broke my promise. I AM SORRY.
~~fuck.~~ my mother is going to know about it. :(

sometimes i wonder, how did i even evolve from that young naive kid, to who i am today.